My Weird Kind Of Diary

12FEB2011

2011-04-12T19:58:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHA! i miss my blog!!!! =))

Many things had happened folks! Best of all i have my bike already!!! WHOOOOOO!!!!

Secondly i had a gf for a month plus. i still fucking love her and miss her i tell you. but well, things just had to be that way. i judged wrongly this time.

have been working and working and working. NONE STOP!

i hate the fact that i'm home thinking of her. i know whats happening. she's back with her ex. but still i'm keep thinking about her. why is that so? how am i suppose to put an end to that love? tell me man! sigh. why la....?

THE END!

05NOV2010

2010-11-05T09:36:00.002+08:00

HOHOHO!!!!

Long time no blog! hahaha!

My life have been really really complicated. Actually not complicated at all. It's just that i'm trying too hard i guess! Well, i just hope that i can just sleep and never wake up! Then no more stress. Everyday you wake up you'll have to worry about stuffs. Never in life you'll step worrying. So SLEEP then NEVER WAKE UP! Best choice.

Have been working then go home like for a few months already. Didn't have much fun for a very long time. Other then work and home i've been going out with the ONLY ONE girl. ONLY ONE! I repeat myself.

Other people also can see that i'm behaving differently and knows that something's wrong in me. WHY she can't seems to see it? Maybe because i don't mean anything to her? Maybe because probably i'm just another guy that is appearing in her life? Maybe because she just need my help this sat then ignore me? I hate to wonder so much. I really hope that ALL OF THE ABOVE are all what i'm thinking only. I don't want to doubt her. BUT, i found out things! So you're telling me that you're changing? haha.

KK, enough of me killing my blog page. Recently Shikin is back! hahaha. Damn long never hear from her. Her daughter needs to go for a surgery. Hope she'll be fine!

Anyway, i'm sick of everything soooo! FUCK OFF!

25JUL2010

2010-07-25T13:23:00.002+08:00

I WAS FREAKING DRUNK LAST NIGHT!!!

But fuck.. Just because i receieve a stupid phone call in the morning that made me the whole day no mood. FUCK THAT FUCKER...

I had fun at the chalet the first day.. Second day damn tired. But i was trying to have fun.. Then in the end still got no mood. Fucking gone eh.. Damn long never like that eh.

Then i came home.. Cannot tahan ah..

I hope alex have fun man.. He was damn funny when he was drunk. HAHAHAHAHA!

08JUN2010

2010-06-08T23:36:00.002+08:00

HOKAY!!! Finally back to blogging.. Settled all my problems.. =))

I had a $1040 and $98 per mth for the next a year and so worth of lesson.. *NEVER SIGN A LINE FOR ANYONE!!

Alright.. Have been working and slacking with my friends and my bros.. Haven't been shopping.. Need to get new shoes and some shirts as well.. Especially a pair of bermudas.. I'm listening to JS on youtube.. For those who do not know J&S it's Janice and Sonia.. A twins that can really sing.. I fucking love thier songs man. Thier vocals are really strong..

THEN, i'm having fun with my iPhone.. LOL!

Recently nothing about love.. More to pampering myself already. I just love pampering myself.. hahaha! I'm getting fatter man..

Oh met Hazman the other day for DURIANS!!! Photos are on my fb..

Nothing much to say.. Signing offff..... =))

The Beach (2000)

2010-04-24T06:32:00.002+08:00

Download this show and WATCH IT!! It's a freaking nice show..

A show about this guy Richard. Went to Thailand for a backpack trip.
He met a guy that told him everything about The Beach.
Next day the guy gave him a map to The Beach.
It was pinned on this motel's door.
He then searched for the man who gave him the map.
He knew it was the guy. He went into his room and found him dead.

He asked his neighbour of the motel. It was a french couple.
To go along with him for a hike.
They then agreed with it.
With no hesitations, they found thier way there.

When they reached The Beach, they weren't so welcome by the community
if people who were like them.
But slowly, they were like a family. It was paradise at The Beach.
It has sea water as clear as water. Sand as fine as diamonds.

The french girl who came there with Richard. Fell in love with Richard.
The boyfriend found out. Yet the boyfriend knows that
they were happy together. So he told Richard
not to hurt her.

As times goes. Something happened. The neighbouring farmers
wasn't too happy about them as Richard previously
gave a map to that island unknowing that he shouldn't do so.
They then were asked to leave the island..

This is just the summary of the story. It's a nice show. Go watch it.

24APR2010

2010-04-24T01:42:00.002+08:00

HOKAY!! Work was like fuck.. Fucking DO mcm sial..

Surprised roll call we were not informed then fucked us. HAHA! But fuck her la.. Don't care also.

I slept the whole day..! Shiok!! Now i've got no plans. BORED! Dont know what to write la. Later got then update.. bye folks!

20APR2010

2010-04-20T10:00:00.002+08:00

Just got back from work... TIRED! Stupid DO wanted roll call like at 5am.. What the hell.. Surprise Roll Call.. HAHA!

No turn outs at night.. During noon had two.. First was a rescue case. Man hole. Second was a fire at east point. HAHA!

Then went back to HQ. All the way do nothing only. Nothing much to write la. I know i'm growing fatter already! SAD!!!!

bye folks...

17APR2010

2010-04-17T10:00:00.003+08:00

First photo of mine that appear on news paper! =))

Just got back home from work.. TIRED! I didn't slept the night before i went to work. Luckily my officers all went out. So i went to hide somewhere to sleep till evening. HAHA!

At night had dinner. Then was like slacking around in HQ. Went to FCC. At around 9pm went for turn out. Suicide case. In the trooper i was like please ah dont jump ah. Luckily the fella didn't jumped. HAHAHA! Went back to HQ around 12am. Went to FCC slacked till around 1.30am. Then went to sleep.

Woke up like 6.30am. Then too cold. Slept in the other side till around 7.30am. Woke up, packed the place. Hand over to the other rota. On the way back Brandon called. So met him for breakfast and so called lunch for me la. Then came home. Washed up. Uploaded photos. Here i am blogging. HAHA! CIAO!

Bye folks!

15APR2010

2010-04-15T18:56:00.002+08:00

Slept damn late last night.. Like around 6.30am.. Was watching american pie - the book of love then watched 2012.. Damn nice ah the show.. HAHAHA!

Cooked dinner, then had dinner. Now don't know what i want to do. Bored infront of the computer. Messaging Perlyn. It's raining outside and it's damn humid in my house. HOT!

Basically nothing much to write la.. haha

I'm off folks! =))

14APR2010

2010-04-14T23:45:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was at work!

Had two calls. Both fire call. hehe!=)

One was at Jurong West and the other was at Defu Lane. Then came home in the morning. Slept. Woke up at around 3pm. Went to somewhere! Then after that somewhere, i became a happy man!! HAHAHA! Wanna know? Ask me.. HAHAHA! SECRET! Came home, stayed home till now. Didn't go anywhere tonight. TIRED! Must rest more ah! Than Friday go back to work. HAHA!

I have nothing much to write. haha!

sign off.... =))

12APR2010

2010-04-12T05:46:00.002+08:00

One Family of Usat..

Biggest Catch of the night..

Another Usat..

Longest Catch of the night..

Came home in the morning from work! Then slept till around 4pm. Woke up, brush teeth, had lunch and shower. Then Farhan called. Thought of meeting up. But canceled. So i stayed home was chatting with Mamat online. Then came Bing Xun to collect his hard disk. Sorry bro, I was working on saturday and only came home on sunday morning. hehe!

So later in the evening Mamat thought of going fishing and asked me along. He came to hougang fetched me from mac then we went to NTUC behind mac to meet Apai. So they don't sell prawn there. We went over to Hougang Green. Thought there was one fishing shop there. I think they closed down already. LOL! So went to buy some stuffs from Shop and SAVE.

Then we moved of to punggol marina. Set up everything. Started fishing. It was the USAT'S night. Whole night get usat only. Three of us caught around nine fishes. Till it was like 5am. Packed up and went off. Went to mac, grabbed a burger came to my block sat there ate and had a short talk with Mamat.

Came home, bathed and uploaded the photos. Now i'm sitting here. HEHE! =))

Good nights folks! =)

09APR2010

2010-04-09T15:04:00.003+08:00

COOL huh!? hahaha!

My second day off.. =))

Spent hald of it sleeping already. HAHAHA! TIRED!! Nothing much to write actually.. Didn't done much.. Khai and his gf stayed over at my place.. Last night i wated for an hour for farhan to come down.. WAH! I've got nothing to write.. HAHAHA!

OH! Last duty, finally fire turn out.. Damn smoky ah the scene.. I was choked by the smoke. Then i smell like the smoke when i get back.. Even the next day ah.. HAHA! Alright shall sign off. =))

05APR2010

2010-04-05T16:39:00.005+08:00

This picture explains life.. "Life's so hectic that everything's moving too fast.. That one day you slows down the pace to look back.. It's all blur and faded..."

Mum's overseas.. It's damn quiet at home ah..

I LOST $10 in my drawer.. Weird.. I remembered i have 70 in the drawer..!! Went to sakura the other day with Jenson, Ka Chuan and Bing Xun.. Eat and eat and eat and eat till i was damn full.. Then saw Nen and Adib there.. After we left sakura, we went to walk around.. Laughing at things.. hahaha! Oh god, the good old times.. Just that we're all grown ups now.. hahaha!

Yesterday was at work.. Half a day at FCC and the other half in office.. HAHA! Only one turn out.. Suicide.. But U turned.. The person was apprehended to the police.. Then came home this morning.. Cooked my own lunch.. Had lunch then transfer files here and there..

Eventually i fell asleep.. Was messaging reena.. I wonder will she be pissed of eh.. HAHA!

03APR2010

2010-04-02T17:07:00.002+08:00

I'm damn TIRED!!! Last night got 3 calls.. ALL CANCELED! haha!

But one was at 5.24AM!!! I was sleeping happily!

I'm so sad about my family ah.. SIGH! Fucking dad like an idiot.. Whatever also dont care..

Mum's flying tmr.. To japan.. Gonna get free perfume from her!! HAHA!

Nothing much to write la.. SIAN!

30MAR2010

2010-03-30T15:34:00.002+08:00

The third day that i didnt talk to her at all..

Hmmm.. Was in hq yesterday.. Was late.. Got confined this morning for an hour. haha! 3 turn outs.. 2 U turns.. 1 confirm.. 2 dead.. Then saw my cousin at the scene in woodlands.. I was like damn hungry ah.. Dinner just arrived had 2 mouthful and here come turn out.. I ran straight downstairs.

Then when i'm back i enjoyed my NASI AYAM PENYET!! haha!

Sigh.. Heartaches that will take damn long to go away.. After all i've said making her pissed off.. I hope she'll really go for the better.. Stop being foolish..!

PL0701S Clalet 2010

2010-03-28T21:43:00.004+08:00

28MAR2010

2010-03-28T15:38:00.003+08:00

I've told her everything... She got pissed..

But to me i think it's for good.. But i swear it really did hurt me as well.. It was so hard for me to say all those things..

I thought i could just get over you baby, but i see that's something i just can't do, from the way you would hold me, to the sweet things you told me, i just can't find a way to let go off you...

I've been hiding all my feelings.. But i can't run away from all the facts.. It's not that i didnt care or i purposely show you that i didn't care.. I just don't know what to do.. If i were to go on like this it will just simply kill me.. Please understand how i feel.. I've never want this to happen.. Oh god, i just feel like crying again ah.. By saying things it just never be able to explain how much pain i had just to tell her how i feel..

Now i hate myself for hurting her..

But i guess all good things have to come to an end.. Nothing is sweet.. I'd rather be alone now.. Just work and work and work.. FUCK MYSELF!

24MAR2010

2010-03-24T22:27:00.002+08:00

HMMMMM...

Started my ROTA shift already.. ROTA 3!

hahaha.. Went for my first turn out last night.. RTA.. one dead.. i was scared siol!!! But after awhile it was alright la...

Anyway, i've decided i should move on slowly la.. Afterall i've been observing since everything happened... It will come to an end where by we'll go our seperate ways.. So yep.. STAY HAPPY MATT! hahaha..

Hmmm... Next month must go book my bike pract already... I've got no choice thats why i didnt booked this mth.. CAN ANYONE UNDERSTAND THIS!? haha...

K la.. nothing much to write.. went to the hospital today to see farhan.. stayed there the whole day.. Then his parents fetched me back.. So now i'm home bathed! Planning to sleep soon.. NO MONEY TO BUY CIGG!!! STRESS AH!!! HAHA!

LOVE? FUCK LOVE!

21MAR2010

2010-03-21T23:21:00.001+08:00

I'm like BORED!

When i'm bored.. I THINK...

The more i think.. The more heartaches i get...

i'm just wondering know.. how long can we last like this... the whole day to me is really damn heartpain.. she promised me to msg me when she's awake.. Then now... in the morning she went out and didnt even bother to msg me till i msg her.. sad right...

HAIZ!!!!

21MAR2010

2010-03-21T06:50:00.002+08:00

HOKAY!!! I STAYED HOME THE WHOLE FREAKING DAY!!! I was bored till i didn't know what to do.. So i cooked my own lunch and dinner...!!!

I SWEAR!!! I miss her like hell.. I just can never forget about it.. I thought i could but it's fucking hard.. The more things gets harder between us.. The more i'm in love with her.. Oh god..I'm seriously falling for her.. How?? I CANNOT.. I can't put myself in so much.. I'll be the one to be hurt in the end.. I know what's gonna come to an end already... It's like i want all this to end.. But it's so HARD to let go!!!!!! How? God, tell me how.. please...

It's like to me now i really need to find things to distract me from thinking about her.. Like getting a actual girlfriend or so.. Or date someone else.. Either that or i just work like hell... That's all i can think lord.. I can tell everyone what to do.. Why is so that i can't talk myself into doing??? WHY!?

Haiyo.. It's harder then what i expect.. When i know that they were out together.. My heart hurts.. It hurts like hell.. HEARTPAIN!!!!!

that's all.. =((

20MAR2010

2010-03-20T01:10:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm damn happy today.. Basically i went back to church. Served MASS.. After so long... HAHAHA!
Memories.. After that went for coffee with Alex.. Catched up a little.. Was like talking about stuffs when we were young.. haha..

Then came home.. I'm like damn tired. BUT i wanna talk to baby.. Miss her so much.. hahaha! All this thing that happened just make me love more... Like crazy fella already eh.. HAHAHA! I'm like totally worn out ah.. Need to rest soon..

This was what happened today ah.. =))

18MAR2010

2010-03-18T13:33:00.002+08:00

I've been lazy to blog till recently..

Many people around me have problems.. I can talk to them.. Wake them up.. But who's gonna talk to me??

I just don't understand why am i doing all this things. All this things of my love life. She'll NEVER leave him. I can say whatever i want. I can feel whatever i want. I can't say it doesn't bother me at all. BUT IT DOES. It hurts. It really does. Oh god, it's like i know whats gonna happen in the end. Yet, i'm putting myself into this. Why is it so? Now i don't even understand myself. It's already a precise answer to everything. No good will come to an end. Is this really love? Please lord, guide me through.

Tell me what to do. She told me that she felt that isn't fair for me. To me, nothing is fair. It's just that i think i really love her. Just that things will never happen. Many times i want to tell her we should just remain as friends. But i don't have the heart to say this. I don't want anything change in this. But this will never happen. There MUST be an answer at the end of the day. Which is we'll be going on our seperate paths. No one can stop that. As this is the fact.

I might appear strong in me. But i'm just as weak as any other human beings hence i do have feelings. I just feel that she's so far away and yet so near. I'm all confused. I'm all confused. Nothing is perfect. Nothing is fair. But to me, there are answers to all this. Why is that so.. Why is it not perfect and not fair. There must be something that made it this way. The most happy day so far for this year is still the 14th February. Everything was so fine.

This is already the past to me. I've made up my mind of being all by myself for now. I give up on this. I don't want to go any further. I just want her to know, everything i did, i did it for her. It all came out from my heart. Whatever i've said, it's all true. It's nothing like sweet talking. Good bye my love.

06MARCH2010

2010-03-06T12:31:00.003+08:00

Life have been hectic man...

Once again i've been thinking about life like whoa.. HAHAHA!

I don't want to live one with this. I don't want to be in all this situation. There are so much things in life that i've yet to accomplish.

Why must i be the one that cares for everyone's feelings and no on even bother to ask how am i feeling. They can get irritated so can i?? It's like fuck the world man..

I like the life that i had in the past. Like i don't give a damn about everything. I watch my back. Now i realised that i trust people to easily man. I'm like so forgiving to everything. To keep conflicts away, even if i'm not at fault. I still said sorry. It's like what the hell right. Am i too nice or what. hahaha!

17JAN2010

2010-01-17T06:17:00.003+08:00

Life was like shit when i didn't get into Fire Fighter... Such a bored life i have...

Have been thinking alot alot alot....

Gotta get my life straight... Gotta stop contacting with people that will never happen to be by my side...

I feel like it's all but a lie... It was just a dream... But i just can't bear to leave it just like this... I seems to be so attached to such lifestyle... Especially during that 3 months in camp... She was there THROUGH the phone for me... Now she's just so cold... I've nothing much to say man...

Gotta start disciplining myself man... Wake up early and stuff.. Going to church every sunday... HAIZZZZZ... ENJOYMENTS ARE OVER!!! =))

01JAN2009

2010-01-01T22:06:00.002+08:00

The night before POC!!!

Last shower in BRTC with my best buds... hahaha!

My dream to FFC is gone... Last photo of me wearing the fire jacket and fire helmet at Madai Training Village..

SIGH~~~ POC OH!!!!!!!!!!!!! PTE MATTHEW CHUA..

My dream of FFC is gone... I worked to hard.. I earned my way... But i didnt get what i wanted... It's really a heartaching news... Heartbreaking news..

Anyway.. New year's eve was really kind of cool.. I spent it in church and didnt spend it with a special someone.. So yea.. Still my bros.. HAHAHA! My new year's resolution is to stop what i'm not suppose to be doing.. No more bad stuffs.. It's really time to be really changed.. I'm already in NS.. so yea.. haha..

On christmas day it really felt good to sit down and see some good old friends.. I really felt good to see alicia again though.. hahaha... alright i'm gonna stop here.. wish me luck in life man.. =))

15NOV2009

2009-11-15T15:07:00.005+08:00

Random Photos with Adib's Camera..

My Rescue Helmet and Glove..

Bravo Coy, Platoon 4

During Rescue Training..

In Dorm Doing Nothing..

DORM 8!!

SIAN AHHHH!!!!

Booking in later!!! Another 5 nights in camp... hahaha...

Friday booked out went to Farhan's house then went to plaza to play num ball.. Lost 20 bucks... Then went back to an's house i fell asleep then shahrul all was playing games... Then saturday noon went to ave 8 to send my laptop for repair.. Now it's healthy buy my webcam still doesn't work... Too bad ahh.. Old already ah my laptop... sian...

Then in the evening of saturday went to buy helmet and to national stadium to watch soccer.. Singapore vs Thailand... Singapore lost... HAHAHAHA!

After that went back hougang to meet adib.. Plaed l4d 2 still a trial though but just play la... for fun.. HAHAHA! Then came home sleep!!! TIRED!!!

Later booking in... sian... shall see everyone next weekend then... hahaha

13OCT2009

2009-11-13T21:54:00.001+08:00

HOKAY!!! 7 weeks to POC oh!!! hehe...

NS life is fun... Just that it's a waste of time... Now everyday having lectures... Not much PT already... I HATE A FEW PTI... mcm ye ye je... HAHAHAHA!!! K la.. i've nth much to write though... i have photos on fb and tagged... so yea... =))

04OCT2009

2009-10-04T17:42:00.002+08:00

Okay... i'm ONE day away from NS....

I'm anxious.. I dont want to be in there... HAHAHA! Sad sia... I'm gonna miss everyone... Family.. Mayhem... Friends... MY FREEDOM...

Morning woked up early to go shopping for some NS stuffs... Bought a new toothbrush... Shampoo... Body lotion.. Toothpaste... Forgot to buy facial wash fuck... hahaha... I need a small bag to put all this stuffs man.. Need to get organise... Don't like to be away from home and be disorganised.. hehehe...

Then went for lunch with my parents and my sis... Came home.. Packed my room... It's neat now!!! Not Messy anymore..!!! =)) At least now i'm better to go off... Nothing much.. Sad right.. all guys have to go through this shit.. NS... Tonight I HAVE TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE!!! My last night before i'm going into NS...

Oh yea.. past few days was a mess... but well.. went prawning with Suze, Lyn, Shikin, Alip, Eddy and Ekin... Went to play l4d with Eddy, Ekin and thier girlfriends... Then on the 2nd oct... GAVE NEN A BIRTHDAY SURPRISE at grandlink... Photos are all at facebook... Lazy to upload it here... hmmmm... guess thats it...

I shall start blogging every weekend... hehehe... Memories of NS... =)

take care peeps!!! GONNA MISS ALL OF YALL!!!!

25SEP2009

2009-09-25T04:01:00.002+08:00

hmmm... spent my whole day sleeping again!! hahaha...

woke up.. met brandon for awhile.. then met up with usop.. hahaha...
then went to plaza to eat and play l4d... then after that... i walked all the way HOME!!! till now i'm doing nth... thats my day for today... what a day!! hahaha!!!

Randomly emotional shit...

2009-09-24T10:26:00.002+08:00

Everytime i think i'm closer to the heart,
what i means to know just who i am,
i think i finally found a better place to start,
no one ever seems to understand,

I need to try to get to where you are,
could it be you're not that far,
you're the voice inside my head,
the reason that i'm singing,
i need to find you,
i gotta find you,
you're the missing piece i need,
the song inside of me,
i need to find you,
i gotta find you,

You're the remedy i'm searching hard to find,
to fix the puzzle that i see inside,
painting all my dreams,
the color of your smile,
when i find you it will be alright,

I need to try to get to where you are,
could it be you're not that far,
you're the voice inside my head,
the reason that i'm singing,
i need to find you,
i gotta find you,
you're the missing piece i need,
the song inside of me,
i need to find you,
i gotta find you,

Been feeling lost, can't find the words to say,
spending all my time stuck in yesterday,
where you are is where i wanna be,
oh... next to you and you next to me......

PHOTOS!!!

2009-09-23T05:46:00.005+08:00

ITE; PL0701S; Outing STEAMBOAT!!!

ITE; PL0701S; Outing STEAMBOAT!!!(There was a girl riding wave... Took out her helmet in the middle of the road while the traffic light was RED)

ITE; PL0701S; Outing STEAMBOAT!!!

23SEP2009

2009-09-23T04:58:00.003+08:00

Team Mayhem; TAA Escort, Buka Together, Bowling and Raimi & Matt Birthday...

NS gonna come soon!!! Sad, excited and somethings i've not done yet...

Have been like staying home for like a week... I'm gonna miss staying at home...

Those are recent photos that have been taken... Never really have been going out though... SOOOOO... Life's damn bored... Almost doing the same thing ever single day... But well, i've been messaging MIZA!!! =)) Have yet to get a chance to meet her... Well i can't say anything though.. It's up to her choice to meet up or not.. I can't force her to do things that she do not want to... hahaha... But she's different... I find her different... Sad though... I'm going to NS like soon and i didn't had a chance to meet up... She promised though to go jln raye with me... We shall see...

Just finished watching FRIENDS!!! Season 1 to 10!!! It was so freaking touching laaaaa... Phoebe got married with Mike.. Chandler and Monica got thier babies adobted it turned out to be twins... Ross and Rachel got back together!!! It's like seriously... I TEARED!!! haha... They left the house in the end.. That's damn sad la.... It's like a group of freaking for friends they end up going in thier seperate ways... It's like the best show ever... They should like have season 11 or maybe a few episodes that show how are they now... haha...

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You're the voice i hear inside my head, the reason that i'm singing...
I need to find you... I gotta find you...
You're the missing piece i need the song inside of me...
I need to find you... I gotta find you...

02SEP2009

2009-09-02T22:34:00.000+08:00

HOKAY!!! I woke up quite late today..

Was just sitting around at home... Checking facebook.. Packed my room a little.. Then watched television the whole freaking day.. Went out at around 6.30pm.. Went to have my hair cut.. Then went to get dinner.. Came home have dinner.. Was watching idol while eating.. Then Didn't wanted to come only.. But eventually i did.. Cos i was freaking bored.. hahaha!

Not much happened today though... Might be going out later.. MIGHT be going fishing.. Wish me luck.. I want big fish!!! =))

But i want to go back lor halus ahh.. that place nice to fish.. hehehe...

P.S. : Guys!!! I'm celebrating my birthday on 4th SEP 2009.. At home.. My mum wants to.. hahaha! She said that i'm going to NS already so must celebrate.. hmmm... If you're coming text me eh... My actual birthday is on the 10th SEP... =))

01SEP2009

2009-09-01T22:16:00.000+08:00

hmmmm... i've been going fishing with Eddy, Boy and Khai... Never lepak much already.. hahaha Celebrating my birthday on friday... hahaha!

oh god.. i'm going to NS!!! Time past damn fast!!!

i've been doing nth.. staying home sleeping... wasting my time.. hahaha... i've got not much to write man... i'm just online and doing nth... BORED BORED BORED!!!

20AUG2009

2009-08-20T16:27:00.000+08:00

hmmmm... bored at home sak!!!

nothing much happened recently.. went out to mac lepak with Khai, Eddy, Predip and Eddy's gf only... have been msging Miza.. hahaha!

have been sleeping very little.. sleep around 6 to 7am then wake up at 2pm... haiyo... that day lagi best... sleep 2 hours wake up cannot sleep i packed my room... hahaha..

recently shikin all of a sudden msged me again... haha.. but well.. must layan her... cos my phone and money is still with her... how i wish she give me back the 90 bucks.. hahaha....

YES AH!!!! Birthday coming!!! hahahaha!!!

SIGHHHH!!!! No money to take pract siak!!! How la??????? Stress know... The feeling is like damn damn damn dman fucked up... Earliest TP is on end of sep sia... I NEED AT LEAST 100 bucks!!!!!

2009-08-14T01:11:00.002+08:00

Secret Recipe TampONE; Din's 21st Birthday Chalet..

Secret Recipe TampONE; Din's 21st Birthday Chalet..; Piercing Shikin's Tongue..

Haiyoyo.. Bored like hell.. Past few days went to Din's chalet... Then the next day went to KARAOKE at Cash Studio.. hehehe!! Then came home i slept the whole day today!!! Power eh!!! Tapi now bored!! Now msging miza and looking for ppl to go eat!!! If not i'll just eat maggi again la... BORED SICK AND TIRED!!! haha...

Tmr going renew PDL.. Then at night go Madina.. Meet up with the rest... hehe... Finally it's friday again... kk.. Nothing to write la!!!

11AUG2009

2009-08-11T00:06:00.003+08:00

Finally it's DONE!!! Our First helmet...

My Life... My Heart... My Family..

Team MayheM - Karaoke @ Grandlink...

Team MayheM - Karaoke @ Grandlink.. Faiz and me..

Team MayheM - Faiz, Shahrul and me..

Team MayheM - SBI; Bikerz Idol

Team MayheM - SBI; Bikerz Idol.. Raimi and me...

Team MayheM - Adventure; Old French Embassy..

Team MayheM - Adventure; Old French Embassy...

FINALLY!!! Can upload photos... Something went wrong the other time.. cannot put photos... hehehe... NOW CAN SIAK!!!

Have been home for THREE fucking straight days.... Doing Nothing but sleeping... Use my lappy then sleep again... Oh god.. I can't survive with menthol cigg man.. my nose are runny... haiyo... Later must go buy... money again.. hmmm... die la like that...

Later gonna meet Shikin and Khai... Lepak.. Do nothing.. I need some colors in life man.. hahaha! Get a girlfriend or something eh.. But eh... find girlfriend cannot like find things that are missing know.. later end up both unhappy eh no good ah... hahaa!! I sound as if my english are like shit.. haha..

So yea... Nothing much to write la... I spent most of my time sleeping... thats alll.. =P

08AUG2009

2009-08-08T04:48:00.000+08:00

Hokay... Earlier on... Went to meet the rest.. It was fun after so long didn't meet up with the rest... Helmet is ready.. Nen's one... My dear nova i still stucked in JB!! hahaha!

Need to get a new one after i clear off with my debts... hahaha.. Then send for spray... Cos that helmet i'll wear it with PRIDE!! haha.. Mayhem is my life man...

Sigh... after a few days i call that running away from feelings... I'm still thinking about her.. how is she and stuffs... hmmm...

Monday.. Going for interview at Macdelivary call centre.. hehe! Hello thank you for calling macdonalds.. Can i have your adderess and handphone number?? Your order sir?? HAHAHA! Kecoh pe... But for the money yes!! Anything man...

BORED!!! Tmr got escort.. I WANT TO GO.. I've been staying home for too long.. i'm damn eager to go out man!!! HAIYO... kk i've got nth much to write.. i dont know why i cant upload pictures here.. i want to upload the photos of the helmet... =))

06AUG2009

2009-08-06T04:45:00.000+08:00

Ashley Tisdale What if Lyrics:

Don't speak, I can't believe
This is here happening
Our situation isn't right
Get real, who you playing with?
I never thought he'd be like this
You were supposed to be there by my side

When you say that you want me
I just don't believe it
you're always ready to give up
Whenever I turn around

What if I need you baby?
Would you even try to save me?
Or would you find some lame excuse
To never be true
What if I said I loved you?
Would you be the one to run to?
Or would you watch me walk away
Without a fight

I'm so sick of worrying
That you're gonna quit over anything
I could trip and you'd let go like that
And everything that we ever were
Seems to fade but not the hurt
Cause you don't know the good
things from the bad

When I say that I want you
You know that I mean it
And in my hour of weakness
there's still time to try

What if I need you baby?
Would you even try to save me?
Or would you find some lame excuse
To never be true
What if I said I loved you?
Would you be the one to run to?
Or would you watch me walk away
Without a fight

Every time I speak you try to stop me
Cause every little thing I say is wrong
You say you're noticing but you never see
This is who I really am,
that you can't believe
Makes me want to know right now
If it's me you'll live without
Or would you change your mind
What if I need you?

But What if I need you baby?
Would you even try to save me?
Or would you find some lame excuse
To never be true
What if I said I loved you?
Would you be the one to run to?
Or would you watch me walk away Without a

Oh baby what if I need you?
Yeah yeah, What If I need you?
What if I need, what if I need you?
What If I need you?
What if I need you?
Yeah, what if I need you?
I need you, you, you

This was a song someone sent to me... haha.. I find the lyrics damn nice... But i hope it doesn't meant anything la.. If not confirm heartpain sak...

Recently nothing much happened... Stayed home all the way... All the way accompany my lappy.. HAHA! Lepak with Predip and all a few times at night.. Still at mac.. Location NEVER changed... haha! As bored as ever... Life's like that la uh... When you're broke like hell... Always doing the same thing... No life seh...

Lucky friday meeting the rest up.. If not DAMN BORED SIOL!! Helmet is ready!! =)) But the rest of our helmet all stuck in JB... So i wont be sending so fast.. No money already sak... Hope it's very nice man.. haha!... Alright man.. i've got no idea what to write.. Everyday stay home.. Sleep, wake up and sleep again... That's all... =))

05AUG2009

2009-08-05T05:24:00.000+08:00

Ku katakan dengan indah
Dengan terbuka
Hatiku hampa
Sepertinya luka
Menghampirinya

Kau beri rasa
Yang berbeda
Mungkin ku salah
Mengartikannya
Yang ku rasa cinta

Tetapi hatiku
Selalu meninggikanmu
Terlalu meninggikanmu
Selalu meninggikanmu

Kau hancurkan hatiku
Hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu
Kau terangi jiwaku
Kau redupkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu

Kau buatku terjatuh
Dan tejatuh lagi
Membuatku merasakan yang tlah terjadi
Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati
Semua yang terhenti tanpa ku akhiri

This is what i really really felt... This song speaks it all..

03AUG2009

2009-08-03T13:54:00.000+08:00

HAIYOYO!!! Damn bored at home siak!!!!

Damn bored!!! I need to go out and walk walk sia.. HAHAHA!

But too bad la i'm kind of seriously broke cos i need to keep money to return to all my debts!! I'm thinking.. How eh?? How to get my phone back in not so obvious way... haha..

It's true eh... hahaha...

Lucky got mamat and apai talk to me sia.. If not i'll be like ******... ******... haha...

ITS OVER MAN!!! NOW i need to get a job laaaa... Finish up my licence... haha...

30JUL2009

2009-07-30T23:21:00.000+08:00

It had been a long time since i last felt
the love that i truthfully wanted.
I'm not as perfect as anyone else,
but i do care about you and everything about you.

I do not have a proper job to give you support
But i'm willing to give in all i can.
No matter what i'll go through,
No matter how hard it will be,
for me to give you the best...

I'm not counting out whatever i had gave you
i never ever thought of asking anything back.
I just want to see you and your family happy.
That was what i wanted,
till i went into contemplation.

I found out that i am in love with you.
I found out that i want to love you.
I found out that you're really the one that i want.
I found out that you're the one that i want to pamper.
The one that i want to cherish.
The one i want to be with.

Till a day.. That i was so lost..
I didn't know how..
I decided to tell you how i feel.
I was doubting.. What if it was just me.
In fact it was just me.. That was what you said.

But in my heart, i know, there's something.
Something that you have yet to tell me.
That is why, i'm sad and down.
It was so painful even losing you as a friend.

My friend told me, you're making use of me.
But i trusted that you're not the kind of doing this.
I was told to give up. But all i want is to know.
What is in your heart. What you're thinking.
What you're feeling.

Now that i'm so far apart with you.. This is how i feel...
I'm but a fool... A fool that is waiting for someone...
Someone that don't even bother about me...
Thinking everyday... How is she doing...
Thinking what is the fact... The fact about your feelings..

I'm nothing but a fool...

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Hokay... Many things had happened... to me la... I'm on quite a few debts... I dont have a job... How la.. Tell me... HOW??

I need to go out more often and stop thinking about her... hahaha. seriously... HAIYO!!!

26JULY1009

2009-07-26T08:47:00.000+08:00

Haiyo!!! I got myself into a deep problem... Life's been like a bitch since yesterday night.. After me thinking why did i helped her so much... I'm really in love with her... Then i came home... I drank alone... Whoa... I msged her... What i felt... Till now there's still no replies... I feel like shit now... I'm going to lose a friend... Oh god...

In my heart i really love her... I'm willing to go on debts for her.. I'm willing to give her anything in any ways.. Somethings that i can never do.. But i'll always try my best.. Why must it be this way? Why must i be in love with her? It's really different from other girls that i've ever love.. This i did think about future.. I did think about how i'm gonna make her real happy and stuffs... I mean in long terms... I'm willing to accept her 2 daughters... Some friends call me crazy... Some say that they'll be happy for me..

i just hope that she'll ignore that msg and we can still be friends... Cos i think she'll be my best friend man.. It's like i know her somehow inside out and she knows me inside out... HAIYO!!! OH GOD!!! YOU BETTER BLESS ME MAN!!!

03JUL2009

2009-07-03T13:15:00.002+08:00

hmmm... Haven't been blogging man...

i've stayed home 2 days straight many toughts... Watching shows.. learning about life...

Indeed in life you gotta grab all chances.. But i'll never grab one if it harms my family and friends.. Never run away from pain.. Face it.. Deal with it.. You can get your way out now.. But you'll still gotta face it in future.. =))

Haven't been doing much man.. Lost my job been doing nth.. But lazing around.. Guess i really can't get a job man.. It's hard to get a job where by i'm left with my last 3 months before NS. Thats bad.. I need to finish up my bike licence.. I have quite a number of debts now..

So this is life babe... Gotta deal with it.. Sigh... That's why i totally agree... life's a bitch...!!

12JUN2009

2009-06-12T04:18:00.003+08:00

Hokay!!! I got Fired from my job on the 10th June!!! FUCK SIA!!!!

Have been lepaking with my SR friends.. Went sentosa... I'm sick and tired of my family issues sia!!! I dont know what to do la sia!!! MCM SIAL AH!!!!

I've been working like a dog at Secret Recipe... This is what i get in the end.. They dont want to confirm me.. Like that also can sia!!! Fucked up place!!! SECRET RECIPE TampinesONE.... Then before that had some family issues... Sigh~~~~

I just gotta cheer myself up man... Time to be out of the house everyday and night... Best is to move out.. Dont have to see that stupid father of mine... sigh!!!!!

11MAY2009

2009-05-11T21:55:00.008+08:00

Aqeim and Me.. Kita jiwa Secret Recipe seh.. haha

Secret Recipe TampONE went towning!!

Top: Aqeim, Syikin(Oxtail), Me and Kai
Bottom: Fareeze and Fairuz

Aqeim, Lynn and ME...

Me and Syikin(Oxtail).. HAHAHA!

Lynn and Fareeze

Me, Lynn, Syikin(Oxtail) and Fareeze behind..

Secret Recipe TamONE's unglam ladies..

Shikin(LambStew), Me and Suzy..

Syikin(Oxtail) and Fareeze...

Lynn and Aqeim...

Suzy, Me, Syikin(Oxtail), Lynn, Shikin(LambStew) and Fareeze behind.

Lynn, Kai(DRUNK) and Suzy... Featuring Syikin(Oxtail), Me and Fareeze..

Me and Syikin(Oxtail)...

Guys of Secret Recipe TampONE.

Crew of Secret Recipe at Boat Quay... =))

Hokayyy!!! I've been working and working... Then i was sick.. HAHAHA! Then I passed my pract 7 today!!! Pract 8 soon!!!! WHOOOOO!!!!

Yep... Went out with my workmates... Got pay short.. Then all pai tao together... Went makan then went to Grandlink karaoke.. Then after that went to Boat Quay to drink and I've tried the 95% alcohol.. It's called the RED DEVIL!!! Shared it with Kai.. HAHAHA!

Then after that went home sleep.. Next day late for work... HAHAHAHA!

Then was busy working.. Till i was sick.. HAHAHAHA! Then went to town the other day... With them also.. Was with Lynn, Syikin(oxtail), Suzy, Fareeze, Aqeim, Fairuz, Kai(Kitchen), Kai (Service), Din and Hanis... Watch DVD at Cine... Then went to lepak at taka there..

Then we all took Night Rider back...

Then!!! Next day work again.. Jia lat sia... HAHAHAHA! KK... My life have been like this now... Thats all.. shall update soon.. =))

27APR2009

2009-04-27T22:10:00.001+08:00

I PASSED MY PRACT 6!!!! HAHAHAHA!

Getting nearer to the licence.. hahaha! Haven't been doing much.. Have been working working and working... No life eh... Tired like hell.. Today off then went down to workplace to take cigg from fitri... Then go home... Then i was late for my pract 6.. I thought fail.. Then anyhow do uh.. Then pass. HAHAHA!

Pract 7 next monday!!! YES AH!!! =))

19APR2009

2009-04-19T23:13:00.002+08:00

Okay... I hate one person at work!!! Bloody bitch shout shout all eh... Happy uh lu marah marah... Mcm gua tk de nye.. Puki lu. Budak SIAL..

There's this girl who's know as the "IC". Shout shout all.. Dont know how to talk properly eh?? Ah fuck la.. Tue i go back work she still shout shout confirm confirm i shout back sia. infront of ppl. Bloody stupid ppl.

I was damn pissed and i came back early. Wah power la. Money kenna cut abit la like that. Sian sia! Want to have a proper job and workplace also so hard sia. Fuck. If i dont need money and a job uh. I'll fucking say i quit sia. Fucked up job.

18APR2009

2009-04-18T01:19:00.003+08:00

WHOOOO!!! Got a job already!!! At Secret Recipe Tampines...

Money!!! Come in soon!!!!
Full Timer eh!!! HAHAHAHA!

Life have been screwed up.. Family.. MCM SIAL AH! Father dont know how to auto abit.. Keep saying he didnt do anything wrong.. Then Dont know how to explain.. I nearly whack him again just now. Bloody bastard child. Fucking Fucktard.

I'm thinking of her... Sigh~~~~

Matt. Matt... Nothing's gonna happen la.. Still think here and there... Sial ah...

Now my life's gonna be work work work and work till i get my licence. Then got money take out bike seh!! Whooooo!!!

14APR2009

2009-04-14T22:57:00.002+08:00

Hmmm... I've been enjoying! hahaha.

Friday! Had a surprise Birthday BBQ for Mamat. With Mayhems, Apai, Shikin and Lynn. Then went Karaoke.. hahaha! Didnt done much though was very tired..

This explains my weekend.. Tired one..

Monday, went to CDC to buy my PDL.. Oh yea! I passed my RTT on Saturday morning!!! WHOOOOO!!!! No more theories... I've passed my BTT, FTT and RTT!!!

Booked my pract 6.. It's next monday...

Gonna be free for this week. Thur starting work at Secret Recipe.. Sat got driving.. Then going to ben's birthday.. Then Sunday rest.. Monday driving again and my pract 6.

Saturday ehhh.. I'm having 2 birthdays to attend.. I guess i'll just attend Ben's one.. Cos its like no matter what he's my bro man..

For the second one.. I'm there or not she'll still be happy.. She'll still go on with everything... I'll be like oh okay.. Her birthday.. I'm gonna be left out.. Hate it though.. It doesn't matter of i'm there or not. So i'll just not go..

Life's like that.. What to do.. Alright man.. Nothing to write la.. I'm damn freaking full from dinner.

07APR2009

2009-04-07T00:05:00.002+08:00

I took out the two new piercings!!! HAHAHA! Cos the tragus was swelling very badly. So i took out the stud to clean it. Then it cannot go in anymore. Tried forcing several times till the pain lead me to headache. So took out. The other one, was like too empty just one piercing out of nowhere. So took it out also. If not cannot wear helmet also. HAHA.

Today woke up at around 2pm. Slept at around 6am yesterday. Was talking to Marcus.

Woke up slacked the whole day at home. Went to Farleeq's house at around evening. Lepak then went to mustafa with Shahrul. After that went back to Shahrul's place there. Lepak for awhile. Came home cos i got STOMACHACHE!!! So NOW i'm here blogging. Damn sian.. Dont know what am i gonna do from now on...

Probably just sleep. haha.

06APR2009

2009-04-06T02:00:00.002+08:00

HOHO... Today woke up late.. So didnt managed to attend the mass..

Then went down to church met Jon, Ben, Joanne and Charmaine first.. Then saw Alex and all. Then had some catch up with them.. Damn long never see them.. HAHA! Miss those old days man.. After that at around 4pm. Went off with Alex to his grandma's place. Then went back to church.. He drove. Then played carom with Jon. Still got the skills okay. HAHA!

So after that went off for steamboat to celebrate my godfather's leaving for 5 years. To philipins. So had dinner. Then phototakings! Then i dont know when i'll get the pictures also. So Alex, Jon, Gerald and me went off first. Went to air port had coffee and had a long talks.

Last time was like so fun. All the young memories. It's like now everyone have grow up. Sad uh.. All got to be like serious already. Can't play around anymore man. It's like i'm fucking 19 years old. I have nothing to my name. I have no qualifications. So sad right?? I'm still doing nothing. I should stop all this man. I need to stop all the fun and get on with life. Face the fact. Get my paths planned.

It's not just getting a job man. It's like i need to get a proper way in life. What i'm gonna do after NS. What diploma should i get. Sigh.. See la play early suffer later.. It will lead you to my path.. Thats very very very bad man... HAHA.

SO i'm gonna like stop going out often.. Get everything right in place then can talk uh. haha.

04APR2009

2009-04-04T03:23:00.003+08:00

hmmmmm.... Today i woke up at around 11.30am like that.. Then brandon called me.. Asked me to go back to Montfort with him. haha~! So i went to meet him then had lunch there. Went to D&T block met Mr Yong and Mr Ng. There's this new teacher!! WHOOOOO!!!! DAMN HOT!!! hahaha. Not that hot actually la. Just gorgeous. HAHA! Then after that came home. Slept the whole noon.

Shahrul called me then i woke up. Went over to HQ. Lepak awhile then met Mamat. Went to the coffeeshop near HQ. Then Makan. Wah! The Kosong prata uh.. Shouldn't have ordered. Waste money siol!!! Then after that went to HQ lepak awhile. Left there at 12.30am with Mamat and Shahrul. Then Mamat offered to fetch me back. But seriously uh, i really dont know why i brought my helmet there know. I was sleepy when i left house. When i reached the bus stop i realised that i brought my helmet along.

Cock sia matt! hahaha. Then was smoking under Farleeq's block. Then got police came. Kenna screen. Rabak nye. Check bike, body search and asked questions all seh. Then after that we went off. Mamat went to shahrul's place to take his helmet. Then fetched me back to my place. Then we had a long talk. Thank god he told me everything or else i'll just be living in my own world. hahaha.

Came home. Bathed.. Hang clothes. Then here i am blogging. hehehe. Yep. Thats all.. Tmr STEAMBOAT with Jonathan and all!!! whoooo.. damn long never see them.. haha.

03APR2009

2009-04-03T02:31:00.003+08:00

I was BORED!!! hahahaha! But its rather more pain then the tragus sia.. The pain is irritating..

Hokay... Let's talk about APRIL FOOL...

I received a phone call from someone whom i really care.. Telling me she's having dengue fever. I was fucking fucking fucking worried at that point of time... I was like what the hell can i do?? Then i gave her a call. I told her i'm going down to the clinic to meet her as she said she's seeing a doctor.. Then i was leaving Farleeq's place already. She sent me a msg.. APRIL FOOL.. Whoa its funny.. She think so?? I was like fucking heartbroken know.

Imagine uh.. I cared for her so much.. I even bother to walk from Serangoon North to Hougang Ave 8. Just to see if she's okay. Then here comes april fool. To me this is not a joke uh. It hurt me like hell know. Best thing still. She's still laughing. I lied to her saying i was almost reaching there. She still can tell me "HOW I KNOW YOU WALK SO FAST LA". Whooo best!

My friends called me stupid for being so nice. Asked me to follow her to somewhere, just a phone call... I canceled EVERYTHING.. All my plans.. Just to accompany her to get her bag at bugis.. Last minute msged me and tell me.. "I dont feel like going". When she was hungry.. She was lazy to buy food... I was late for a meeting.. I went to buy what she wanted.. I went to her place to give it to her... AM I EASY TO BE MADE USE??

People called me stupid and i defy it and took it as just another comment.. I cared for her.. I got this shit again.. You know how heartpain is it?? How hurt am i?? I guess i'm just being dumb to be in love with her.. I'll never find a girl that i really want man.. I want someone to love i want someone that i can care for..

All i want to know is that WHY is she willing to take care of me when i got into an accident with mamat.. WHY?? That moment.. The moment that i'll never forget..

Sigh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm really dumb..

01APR2009

2009-04-01T03:27:00.002+08:00

FINALLY!!! I've got it DONE!!

Hokay... Afternoon... I went to deposit money...! But the Stupid machine not working... Then i thought SAM Machine can book BBQ Pit.. But cannot.. Wasted a trip down to AVE8. But well... Went to meet Mark though... Long time no see him seh... Then played game with him.. Dead OR Alive... Funny sia that game...

Then at around 5pm left Mark's house.. Met Predip on the bus... Then went to Plaza there deposit money.. Then Went to AXS Machine to book. Bloody hell.. East Coast Park all the bbq pit booked seh.. So no choice booked the Pasir Ris one.. haha.

Then after booking went to buy my lip stud.. Then I pierce my tragus.. Like finally after so long.. Wanted it during ITE year one.. But didnt do it...

After that went home. Rest abit then went over to HQ. Lepak abit then i got PRANKED by ESTELLA TAN TSE PEI!!!! I'm damn sot now. She told me she got dengue.. I was like fucking fucking worried.. I was like what the helll. I want to meet her.. I'm damn worried. Then when i was leaving HQ.. She msged me APRIL FOOL.. You know how i felt?? I was like seriously thanks uh...

Then i had no mood... My nose all stucked.. Runny nose.. I came home... Then i'm here typing all this...

29MAR2009

2009-03-29T19:56:00.002+08:00

OKAY!!! I spent my whole day home sleeping!! Best uh!! hahaha!

Wednesday!! FTT.. I'm fucking scared now.. How la.. Scary siol... Then 11th April RTT.. Even more scary...

Have been home for the past 2 days... Learnt how to play Hey Monday songs. HAHAHAHA!!! Candles is a very nice song.. =))

Gotta go out and have some fun man.. Go drink or something i'm like crazily bored at home.. Nothing to do at all siol.. Just sleep.

She's always here for awhile and there she go off again.. I'll never be able to tell her how i feel.. Sigh.............. I guess she knows but she's just ignoring it.. Then i'll be the one that will be having all the hearaches.. hmmm.. what to do.. i've got no looks.. I'm FAT, BALD and JOBLESS..

27MAR2009

2009-03-27T18:32:00.002+08:00

Hmmmmmm... Life's been bad... Money go out but never come in... Gonna suffer soon..

BUT!! I PASSED MY PRACT 5~~~ HAHAH damn happy.. Now wait for RTT.. Ke sian uh... Nothing to do now... waste time only... tonight go down madinathul... Dont know should bring helmet or not... Later no one tongpang LL walk carry helmet.. haha. Like fuck.

FUCK LA...

25MAR2009

2009-03-25T15:55:00.003+08:00

Hokay.. Counting down to my FTT and RTT.. HAHAHA! Oh god RTT please uh please.. please please.. please... One time pass uh.. If not i have to wait for another month.. haha.

Last night woke up around 11.. Then went to meet Farleeq and all. Then went to lepak at park villa then went to eat laksa.. HAHA! Drank abit.. Then lepak till the sun come out then went back to Farleeq's house.. Then lepak with Farhan till just now noon 1pm. Came home bathe.. Now got stomachache all. Diarrhea siol!!! Stomach damn numb siol!!!

Estella... Estella...... Also got diarheoa.. But never listens.. Still want to go to work... Aiyoooo.... Dont know what to say... Sad seh..

Then.... Had a long talk with Farhan.. HAHA! Random.. But well i got to find out that i'm all along reminiscing the times when someone is around... It have been a long long time since i have this feeling already.. Well i've been single for like close to 4 years. Didn't had any special feelings for any girls man.. Till that day came. I never expect her to take care of me when something happened to me. Till today... i still dont know whats the reason that made her actually waited for me and walked me home and took care of me.. I really do want to know why..

I'm not scared of rejection.. It's just that i'm scared that its one sided.. How laaaaA?? God will you tell me what to do??

24MAR2009

2009-03-24T06:29:00.003+08:00

SIGH!!! I still can't fall asleep.. damn bored dont know what to do man!!

Why am i so concern on her calling me desperate?? Why uh?? Feeling damn weird.. I'm like NOT!!!

Okay, i might be a low life bastard.. But i'm not desperate man..

To all the high class motherfuckers out there.. I hate you!! Damn bastard son of a gun.. (This only applies to ppl who thinks they are damn freaking rich and they can do whatever fuck they one uh..)

Okay i'm freaking going crazy over here man.. Jobless.. Fat bastard am i.. Lazing around... Fucking no life... I'm so dead man.. I'm so dead.. I need a life man.. All my friends from secondary school.. My used to be clique.. I miss you guys man... I need all the fun we had man.. All stupid things that we does and all the drinkings... I miss those good old days man.. I hate my life now man to the fact that i'm like no control of anything.. What the FUCK happened to the used to be MATTHEW..

Imagine how fucked up am i now.. All my friends from secondary school just disappear one after another.. Even my closes one.. Fuck la.. Seriously.. Fuck!!!!! Soon i'll go crazy man!! I so need to go for some gigs man.. Go into the mosh pit and vent all the anger out!!! I HATE MY LIFE!!!...

21MAR2009(2)

2009-03-21T08:58:00.003+08:00

This is what nothing to do can lead to... =))

HAHAHA!

Memories Given by the road... =))

21MAR2009

2009-03-21T08:21:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking about my life lately...

Life's been a bitch man... Regretted my past. Now that i'm 19 this year and i've got nothing to my name.. Oh god.. I'm like freaking squeezed dry by the so called "RECESSION". I'm freaking broke.. I've been applying for many jobs.. NONE of it called back.. I'm like totally irritated!!

I've sent like more then 20 resumes and applied like more then 20 jobs online man!! NO REPLIES!! How do i live in Singapore like that?? I can't pursue my dream.. My dream is to like get hold of my licence and buy a bike. How am i suppose to fulfill it now?? Everything seems like screwed up! Fucked up.. I dont know what else to say..

IF.. Killing myself dont feel any pain.. I'll do it man... I just hope that i'll finish up NS and save up money and just MIGRATE!! Get a PR at canada.. Bring my whole family over.. Study there and get a job there..

Every second of me being in Singapore i feel fucking stressed up for this and that. Sigh...

Hate my life man.. Why am i borned like that?? Why la??

BIKE insurance 19 years old, with probational plate.. For KR.. 1800 fucking bucks... Crazy.. Third Party without any coverage.. What The Fuck??

I've been jobless like for so fucking long sia.. I can't just depend on my mum know... FUCK LA!!! I'm like damn irritated with all this shit sia... I feel like a useless bloody bastard!!! Now.. Everywhere qualification.. Why can't they just think that what if people who doesn't have a high qualifications can't get a job?? Why must they only favour towards people with degree and stuffs its like not fair la.. Now even simple job need O lvls..

Anyway.. have been doing the same thing i've been doing everyday... Sleep at this hour.. Wake up at around 8pm.. Farleeq's house.. The "i'm fat, bald and jobless" lifestyle.. FUCKED UP LIFE I HAVE!!

19MAR2009

2009-03-19T21:23:00.002+08:00

hmmmm... i'm still fat, bald and jobless.. HAHA!

Everyday the same cycles comes. hahaa!

Failed my pract 5.. Sian siol!! Money must come out again.. Hope RTT one time pass sia.. If not sian.. Rabak.. hmmmm... ESTELLA ATE DOUBLE CHEESE BURGER!!! hahaha i'm bored la... just really really bored..

kk nothing much to write.. OH! My debit card is HERE!!! =)) But i've got no money to spend.. Alright gonna meet farleeq soon. Bye blog! Pray for me kay.. Pass all my practicals and theories and get a job.. =))

17MAR2008

2009-03-17T19:19:00.002+08:00

I'm Fat, Bald and Jobless.. hahahaha!

Havent been doing much... Was at Farleeq's place almost everyday.. Lepak... Do nothing.. Go meet girls... HAHA!

Stucked in the four walls everyday... Come home in the morning sleep then back there again.. This is what you call "very free people.." or "jobless people.." Nothing much to type also.. Pract 5 wed.. WHOOOO!!! If pass... I'll stuck with RTT.. hmmm... Hopefully by may can get my Class 2b!!! =))

14MAR2009

2009-03-14T03:09:00.002+08:00

YES AH!!! PRACT 5!!!!! =))

Finally i dropped a bike at CDC!!! HAHAHA!

Yesterday was at HQ. Then came home this morning at 6. Slept till around 2pm. Then woke up. Washed up. Got ready. Finished all my ciggs! haha. Then went off to CDC for my pract. Everything went quite well. Narrow plank still not very stable the first few times. Then slowly slowly.. I managed to sat on the plank for 12.9 secs. Requirement is more the 6 secs only. I'm very proud of that! HAHA! =)) Pylon Slalom 5.67 secs. E brake is fucking scary today i dont know why. The water look damn scary. hahaha!

Then!!!! After the pract, the last course that i went was E Brake so my shoes was wet. Then went to park the bike. So i have to put the main stand up. So i thought it was up already i let off my hands. Then the main stand slipped off my sole. The bike dropped HAHAHA! My dear MACBETH is dirty now!!! Fuck! My favourite shoe sia!

Then at that point of time i was like shit i'm gonna fail my pract 4 and come back again. So i met kleon. He failed his TP 60 points!!! HAHAHA! Kleon.. Ohhh Kleon.. Then i was waiting to get my record book back.. I was surprised that i passed sia!! WHOO!!! Cheers to the instructor!! =))

10MAR2009

2009-03-10T02:11:00.003+08:00

My Most Recent Shopping.. =))

Today.. Met Marcus, then went to Macpherson for an interview for clubmarc. Then went to Ah Boy to buy the helmet. Then after that went to suntec. Had lunch then went looking for Springfield. Applied for job there. Then walked around suntec.. HAHA! See everything but cannot buy. Sian sia..

After suntec we went to marina. Then walked around windows shopping. After that marina got bored. So went to Cine. Thought Sasha will be there. But she wasn't there then went to i shop. Walked around... Then went to subway to buy cookies. HAHA! Left town at around 8 plus. Came home. Put my stuffs. Went to meet Shahrul, Farleeq, Predip, Yan and Akmal. Then Mamat came. Lepak lepak then went over to meet apai all. Lepak for awhile came home. Tmr got pract. Hehe! PRACT 4!!! WHOOOOO!!! =)) Alright i'm gonna stop here. =))

09MAR2009

2009-03-09T01:07:00.002+08:00

EHem... Ehemmm.. MAYHEM!!!

STEAMBOAT!!!

Mayhem!

2 Guys 1 Bowl...

Dinner TIME!!!

Hokayyyy... 6 March 2009... Mayhem went MOUNT FABER!!! Had Steamboat.. Celebrating 4th month annivesary and farewell party for Shahrul... Going to NS on the 10th March...

Before meeting the guys... I met Nen earlier then went to Far East shopping.. I bought a Elements cap.. =)) Its original!!! haha. Then got nothing to do already... Nen and i went to cine.. Played Nintedo Wii.. HAHAHA! Fucking fun.. Funny!! Then around evening went down to habourfront to meet the rest.. Took a cab up to mount faber.. Then the dinner starts... Makan, makan and makan.. HEHE.

Then finished eating had a small gathering have a few talks and we left for Sheesha at arab street. Then went home... So the day ended.. A very long day for me i was like whoa came home and flat..

Yesterday.. Ronald called me to go drink with them as he's going to NS.. Wah stress siol spent abit of money.. hahaha! Cos i'm broke again.. Cleared all my debts and put money in CDC account. Now only left just nice for buying a new helmet and sending spray.. hahaha!

SoooooOOOoooo... Today...
Stayed home the whole entire day... Did nothing but sleeping... Woke up used the comp... Till now still using the comp.. I'm looking for Pet Society cheats... Anyone knows of please tell me.. Thanks!!!

Randomly.. Suddenly.. I just miss the time when i got into that accident.. The times when she took care of me.. The time where by she waited for me till 6am at mac.. sigh... I know it can never be a possible between us but.. I dont know what to say man... I didnt get my posting to any poly.. So i shall clear my practs fast and go to the ARMY!!! =)) / =((

04MAR2009

2009-03-04T18:33:00.002+08:00

Hokayyy.... Woke up damn early today.. Good boy seh.. Stayed home the whole day...

Tonight meet they guys and lepak... Cannot wait sia... Damn bored at home...

Nen accident last night rabak seh... Taxis driver are really some ass man... Dont know where they pass thier licence sia... hahaha!

Alright man nothing much to write la past few days have been at farleeq's place... BUAI!!!

26FEB2009

2009-02-26T01:37:00.002+08:00

Hokay... My blog seems to be dead.. hahaha! Past week was at Farleeq's place everynight so didn't blog.. SO i've been out everynight lepak with Farleeq, Farhan, Predip and Shahrul.. hahaha!

This morning went to book my pract 3 and my FTT.. My FTT is on fucking 1st april.. Damn long seh.. hahaha! Then went to the bank applied for the debit card.. Changed my ez link card. hahaaha! Lucky Faruq followed me sia.. If not i wont go down to CDC again.. Cos haven't slept the previous nightS hahaha.

Came home bathe.. Immediately KO! Then slept the whole day till like 12am. Then had my so called dinner and NOW i'm infront of my lappy blogging and chatting online with quite a numbers of ppl..

Many things had happened in my family.. My dad was caught having an affair with some China bitch.. Sial ah he.. Fucking got family married for like 30++ years got 2 children oldest 19 this year.. Still want to have affair. If my mum didn't stop me from whacking him uh.. I'll make sure he end up in the hospital.. Bloody asshole. I'm not gonna talk to him till he regret sia.. Fuck him la. Anyway i dont think i can accept him as my father anymore.. Fuck him..

15FEB2009

2009-02-15T09:31:00.002+08:00

Guess how i spent my valentine's day??

I went to powerhouse and stone.. =)) Was a cock night i swear..

Anyway, met serena tan SOCK LING there.. HAHA! Then didnt drink much.. Went to dancefloor also never dance.. Just stood there like a pillor. haha!

A valentine's day without a valentine again.. 5th year man!!! KK! Gonna go sleep.. Just got home and just finished bathing. haha. =))

10FEB2009

2009-02-10T13:27:00.001+08:00

Hmmm... Havent been sleeping well for the past few days sia!!! Fucking tired... Later PRACT 2!! WHEEEE!!! hahaha.. Alright man... My dad's taking a fucking long time bathing i'm gonna so be late for my pract... haha... Kk.. gonna rush out soon... shall continue tonight.. =))

09FEB2009

2009-02-09T00:20:00.002+08:00

Hokay Wokay...

Yesterday night went down to St James... With Dominic, Sian Aik, Amir and Polin... Had fun though... Whole night of RnB.. Long time sia... Very crowded.. But alright la get to have fun too.. hahaha. 4 Hours on the dance floor.. Every week like that uh.. Confirm DIE siol!!!

Came home... Literally die flat on the bed sia.. Woke up at like noon today ate lunch then lepak abit then fell asleep again.. then wake up at around 10... Lucky sia.. Caught Live and Loaded that featured AVA.. They are good sia!! haha.. Alright nothing much to write... Going to do nothing.. hahaha BYE BYE!!! =D

04FEB2009

2009-02-04T01:51:00.002+08:00

I PASSED MY BTT!!! NOW HOLDING MY PDL!!! HEHEHE!!!

Anyway, i've enrolled for Class 2B!!! Its like finally man!!! WHOOO!!! Pract 1 this thur... So i was out before i went for my BTT... SO i came home and slept the whole day... hahaha! Just woke up not long ago... NOW!! Cannot sleep man...

I'm damn happy!! Double happiness sia... haha. Nothing much to blog today man... =))

03FEB2009

2009-02-03T01:33:00.002+08:00

BTT tmr seh!!! HAHAHA! Abit scared... But damn happy... Enrolling for class 2b tmr!!! WHOOOOO!!!! Gua HAPPY GILA BABI SEH!!!

Hope Felicia and I will pass seh... Dont want to waste anymore money!!! HAHA! Anyway today did nothing the whole day was sleeping... Dont know later meetin Mamat and Shahrul or not... They are still in JB... Damn fucking bored now sia...

Stayed home the whole day... Rabak pe?? haha..

sigh............. Nothing to write la...

02FEB2009

2009-02-02T02:17:00.004+08:00

Amir, Me, Dominic, Shawn, Sian Aik and Darren @ St James Powerhouse.

Me & Sian Aik @ St James Powerhouse.

Me & Amir @ St James Powerhouse.

Dominic & Me @ St James Powerhouse.

Dominic, Shawn and Me @ St James Powerhouse.

Me & Sian Aik @ St James Powerhouse.

HOKAY!!! I WAS HOME THE WHOLE FREAKING DAY!!!

I'M FUCKING DYING!!!

HAHA! Today woke up around 6pm... Doing nothing the whole day... Was browsing through facebook, tagged and friendster. Then now playing poker online and blogging...

Went to St James last friday night... HAHA! Was fun man... Hope to go club again with Nic and friends. Damn damn damn long never go club already sia.. haha!

Tuesday BTT... Sian got study like never study like that sia... Cannot really remember anything.. Anyway finally tuesday i'm enrolling for class 2b!!! FINALLY MAN~~ Whoooo!!!

kk. shall end here. going back to poker!! =)) Just won 10k!!! hehe.

28JAN2009

2009-01-28T20:18:00.003+08:00

Chinese New Year was bored!!!

Collection only $150.. Every year getting lesser. Next year i think confirm around 100 one. Rabak pe?? HAHA! Sigh... What to doo...

Today started work. I slept early yesterday sia. Dont know why still so sleepy. Today i shall sleep even earlier. By 9 i want to sleep. HAHAHA! Aiya... Damn bored la. New Year like not new year like that.. MCM SIAL... No such mood.

Shall face the fact and work hard hard for money!!!

Bye blog! =))

26JAN2009

2009-01-26T00:33:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

Very fast seh.. One month past like that. Haha!

Hmmmm... Ang Baos!! My target this year is only $160.. I happy already...

Did nothing much for the past few days man.. Work, work, work and nothing else. Friday lepak with friends overnight. Then came home slept. Then packed my room. Today reunion dinner. Eat only then came home at 9pm. Sian sia. Nothing to do fucking BORED!! I think gonna sleep soon sia. Tmr if i can wake up i shall go to church. hehe!

kk nothing to write la bye!

20JAN2009

2009-01-20T22:27:00.002+08:00

hmmmm!!!

i've been working and lazing around did nothing much... haha. have been online everyday and every night. haha.

never gone out much also.

talked to shereen just now online haha. we were bored then we started talking about kids.. haha. we have names for "our kids". haha! Boy: Sherman Chua and Girl: Rene Chua. hahaha!

interesting huh. haha. alright man i'm damn damn bored... gonna go sleep i think =))

14JAN2009

2009-01-14T00:46:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, went to ducston rd with Shahrul, Ken, Rashiq and Zul. HAHA! It was celebration for Shahrul's birthday. We had fun man. Drinking and Drinking...

Came home coughed like hell again sia. Then i didnt go work today. Sian tmr sure kenna scold. Shikin also never go. She confirm angry with me sia. Today nothing much happened though. Went to meet Brandon then went to cut hair. Came home watch my show then till now. Bored seh.

Hokay tmr working. =))

11JAN2009

2009-01-11T01:45:00.002+08:00

Today!!! Woke up damn early sia. Bloody air con man must come today cannot come tmr to service air cons in my house. haha. Then watch TV till 2pm bathed then went to work.

It was fun la the job but quite tiring. Maybe cos i'm sick la. Whole day coughing sia. Then finished work at 11pm. Came home around 12 plus. VERY VERY TIRED! Luck tmr off. =))

Then now watching The Little Nonya!! hahaha. Alright thats all man. =))

09JAN2009

2009-01-09T23:00:00.003+08:00

Today, i woke up i wanted to go work. I lost my voice sia! HAHA.

Then decided not to go work. So i went to see a doctor. I've got cough, runny nose and soar throat(throat inflamation). Then went to buy lunch and ciggs came home. Ate lunch ate medicine then went to sleep. Wake up feeling a little better. Tmr starting work at Bottle Tree Park. Hopefully it will be a good experience man. haha.

Went online when i woke up. Talked to Shereen. I was browsing around on the net and i found this thebathroomgirl, http://www.myspace.com/thebathroomgirl. She got fucking good vocals sia. Then mum called. Went downstairs to carry stuffs for her. She bought dinner for me ask well. Oh god. I'm like dying la. I hate to be sick now. During school days i hope i'll be sick now work. One day sick means one day money gone! Walawe. Can die sia. HAHA.

Nothing much happened today man. Was sleeping throughout the whole day. Wasting my day. =))

Chatted with shereen online.. I realised that we have alot of same interest. haha. cool. =))

09JAN2009

2009-01-09T02:59:00.002+08:00

HOKAY!!!

Morning went to work... Then it was busy la sia! Then rush rush rush till lazy to work sia. HAHA!

Then after work met Brandon. Went back to montfort. Then went to mac for awhile. Then came home. Met MAYHEMS at madinathul and apai. lepak then came home around 2am. Then now chatting to Cheryl online.

Going to bed soon. Working tmr! I mean later. HAHA! Nights!

07JAN2009

2009-01-07T23:45:00.000+08:00

Todayyyy.... Woke up at 8.30AM... Then took bus then train to Jurong East!!

Bought breakfast. Then went to work. Work was damn boring today. HAHA! Maybe cos i'm tired la uh. HAHA.

After work came home. Rested. Ate maggi mee. Then used the comp the whole evening then slept for awhile till mum came home. Woke up... Now playing super pet on Facebook. HAHA!

Alright going to bed soon. Nights nights blog! hahahaha!

06JAN2009

2009-01-06T23:19:00.005+08:00

Bing Xun, Felicia, Ronald and ME!! @ DALLAS

Chee Hoe, Jenson and ME!! @ Dallas

PEACE!!! ME!! @ DALLAS

Ronald and Bing Xun! @ DALLAS

Zed, Felicia, Ronald, Bing Xun, Jenson, Chee Hoe and Ka Chuan! @ DALLAS

Ronald, ME, Bing Xun, Jenson, Chee Hoe and Ka Chuan! @ DALLAS

Tequila Shot @ DALLAS

@ DALLAS

Bing Xun, Jenson, Chee Hoe, Ka Chuan, ME and Ronald! @ DALLAS

Felicia, Bing Xun, ME, Jenson, Ronald, Ka Chuan and Chee Hoe. @ NOVENA

CANDID SHOT i guess. HAHA!

Bing Xun, Chee Hoe, Ronald, Jenson and Ka Chuan @ Zhen Fa Steamboat

STEAMBOAT!

Hokay.. We went to celebrate the last day of Bing Xun being a civilian for 2 years! On Monday, 5th JAN. HAHA!

Everyone i asked came sia. Accept for Jun Jie. HAHA!

We went to have steamboat at Zhen Fa. Ate like hell again.. HAHA! Then eat eat eat! Then we went to Felicia's boyfriend's workplace to drink. Dallas. Then had beer, wine, tequila shots, gin and bourbon. Then left there around 11.30.

Fri till Mon uh.. I've been to Boat Quay twice.. Sat i walked like a dead man cos i had a fucked up time.. Mon, see i'm with fun people! So happy sia walking down my memories lane. HAHA!

Then when i reached ang mo kio no more bus sia! HAHA! Took a cab back paid $7.20. I Only got $7.10. HAHAHA! Came home bathe, went online then rest for awhile then off to bed.

Woke up this morning went to work. Still late! WAH!! STRESS SIA! HAHA!

Then after work came home slept from around 6 till now. Damn shiok later still can continue sia. HEHE. Alright nothing much happened today man. bye blog.. =))

04JAN2009

2009-01-04T19:21:00.002+08:00

GUYS!!! NEVER WATCH 7 POUNDS IF YOU DONT LIKE SERIOUS KIND OF DRAMA!!!

I fell asleep sia. Then left the cinema. HAHA!

Anyway, it was really a bored outing (success to someone) till playing cards. HAHA! Then went home bathed sleep. Wasted 35 bucks last night. I'm using the word waste sia. It's still good to stick to close friends though.

It's bad to have a bad past. People DO JUDGE you by your past man. Judgemental motherfuckers. Sigh what to do... They are of the upper class what. Lowly people doesn't deserve to be friends. So what the hell man. Leave it.

I think i've got enough of drinking sia. Now even beer cannot get down into my stomach sia. I think one day after drinking i'll just sleep and NEVER wake up sia. HAHAHA! I'm so bored now. Tmr going steamboat again!!! Bing Xun going NS already seh... HAHA. Alright nothing to blog la. BYE BLOG!!! I guess FUCK THE WORLD will be a very good three words to use now.

02JAN2009

2009-01-02T22:05:00.003+08:00

My first post of 2009!!!

HAHA. HOKAY... New year was somehow great. It was my Dad's and Dom's Birthday. I managed to get Dom drunk and GONE!! hahaha.

Then things all happened today when i found out something. In life never trust someone who's not close to you... I always believe in such saying brothers BEFORE WHORES!!! Lucky dom had the correct mindset man...

Korng nak buat nye mcm... Gua tak geisa la eh... Gi mati la Korng. Siput lu korng.

Fucked up ppl...

Anyway, finally get to meet mark. Christmas pai tao me uh... HAHAHA! Alright not in the mood to blog also. So FUCK OFF!!!

5.34am...

I'm not a nice person ma.. WHY the hell in the fucking first place you guys want me to go??

I SWEAR!!!
I've NEVER FUCKED a GIRL WHEN I'M FUCKING DRUNK..
I've NEVER SERIOUS IN WHAT I SAID WHEN I'M FUCKING HIGH.

You looked like you're FUCKING stripping la! Thats why i pulled your bag and your fucking cardigan up. That's also my fucking fault.

FUCKING regret having this drinking shit la.

Ended up fucking my fault.

Best uh we shall not acknowledge each other next time la uh. Take it as if we dont even fucking know each other la uh.

GUA TAK GEISA LA!!! = I DONT FUCKING CARE!!!

30DEC2008

2008-12-30T23:13:00.002+08:00

I failed my BTT today sia!!! SAD!! HAHA.

Next BTT will be 3rd FEB 2009. So by then i can keep my money and enrol for 2B!!! WHEEEE!!!

Hokay today met Brandon and his girlfriend had lunch then headed down to CDC. Then met Felicia and Bing Xun there for out BTT. Then i saw Rizal and Md Nuh. So Felicia, Bing Xun, Rizal and me went up for our BTT. Then ended up only Bing Xun passed. Congrats man. HAHA!

Fail already then we went down to book our next BTT.

After that came home. Then was home and online the whole freaking day. Damn sian!!! Thats all happened today. =))

29DEC2008

2008-12-29T04:43:00.002+08:00

Whoooo! This year's coming to an end man!!!

Anyway, this weekend i went to ZOO!! With my classmates. haha! Fun though. Sunday went to mamat's place play GUITAR HEROES!!! Then shahrul had to go work. So left me Apai and Mamat. Apai and i played the whole Fucking Aerosmith Album SIA!!!

Then went down to Serangoon Central to meet Shahrul then went back together. Came home slept like a pig man. Just woke up though. Got work later on.

30th DEC BTT!!! Whoooo. I haven't study a single shit sia!!! Alright man nothing much to type. =))

25DEC2008

2008-12-25T16:09:00.003+08:00

Brandon, Jonathan and ME!!! Christmas 08

My Best Buddies In Church! Chrismas 08

Chrismas is here again man. Every year getting older every year having more responsiblities. Sigh. Every year no girlfriend to celebrate with. Whats wrong with me uh?? HAHA!

This year Church was like DEAD! Literally DEAD!! Then same things goes every year. Joanne's family will have a hotel room then we'll all go up to eat then drink with Uncle Anthany and Joanne's dad. Then i went home around 4am. Came home sleep. Damn tired.

Sigh matthew matthew. it have been many years that you've been single. HAHA!

Sial ah. Where's my love?? It have been 4 years man!!! hahaha.

I'm having a very sad christmas i guess. Nothing's fun. Nothing is right. No one cares about me. Had a bad dream, a friend took away my love. So sad. Wake up being emotional. So sad. Okay Thats all. BYE! Tmr working seh!!! Whoooo.

23DEC2008

2008-12-23T23:45:00.001+08:00

Dinner TODAY! Botak Jones!

My First MACBETH!!! =))

Hokay, today went to work. Shikin didnt come. So i alone damn sian. HAHA! Bored sia. Then after work went to meet Dominic at Yew Tee. Then met Cheryl. This time round buy shoes!!! Then Cheryl bought a top and 2 pair of shoes. I bought a MACBETH!!! =)) $119. hahaha!

In between we were walking around.. Here and there of town. Then till i decided to buy the MACBETH at far east. Then bought it we went to wisma sat at starbucks. =)) Nic was tired so i feel damn fucking weird going out with him okay. HAHA! Then sat there then Cheryl suddenly had the mood to shop so went to Topshop. Then she bought a top and Cotton On to buy the shoes.

Then we went home after that lo... So here i am! At home! Working tmr! Then going to church at NIGHT!!! Gua Religious man pe!!! =))

22DEC2008

2008-12-22T23:54:00.006+08:00

Photo Credit to Cheryl. =))

Pondering. Photo Credit to Cheryl. =))

Photo Credit to Cheryl. =))

I like this photo sia. Credit to Cheryl. =))

BY ME!! NICE?? =))

Taken by me. =))

Photo credit to Cheryl. =))

TODAY! I was late for work, for like an hour. 5 bucks gone. HAHA!

After work went to meet Dominic and Cheryl. So i took train to Yew Tee then Ang Mo Kio then to TOWN!!! So we went christmas shopping. In fact i'm the only one that Shopped. HAHAHA! Cheryl took many many many PHOTOS... HAHA! We went to Far East, i got a cap. Then went to Subway. We ate then headed to Taka. Went to Pull and Bear, Zara and G2000. So finally i bought a shirt from G2000 for $42.10. HAHA! Then we went to scout for Jeans. Didnt found any. So we went to Cine.

We went to subway. Then i met Sasha. Asked her about my job. Sian!! Have to see the RM then see how. HAHA! So we went to walk around Cine. Went to Revoltage, Fred Perry and Nike. HAHAHA! Bought nothing. Then i thought of going to wisma for Topman. When Cheryl was damn tired. I feel bad uh. But i really gotta get the Jeans. Or else i spend the money i have, then i'll die. HAHAHA! So i bought a black jeans for $53.10 after discount. Then we all went home. Accompany Cheryl till Ang Mo Kio then took 74 to mac. Dominic gotta take the train all the way back to YEW TEE!! HAHAHA! Then drop by mac then went to meet Estella to pay her for the cap.

Them met Shahrul for awhile. Then came home. Bathed immediately then came online. =))

21DEC2008

2008-12-21T16:35:00.002+08:00

SGH-F480. =))

HOHO!!! It's four days to christmas!!! haha

Okay, saturday went to celebrate Farleeq's Birthday. We went to Sentosa. HAHA! Had fun. Then at 7 i went over to Sean's house. There was a christmas gathering. Then drank drank. Now having hangovers. HAHA! Then earlier on i went to buy my new phone!!! =))

18DEC2008

2008-12-18T22:13:00.003+08:00

Today, went to work.. Reached Jurong East damn early sia!!! So waited for Shikin for 30mins like that. Then went together. Cos pai seh uh new there then go early dont know anyone there also. HAHA!

Then today work was okay. Kind of know everything already. AFTER WORK. Went to ang mo kio to meet Cheryl. Then she came to hougang with me. Had dinner together. Had a long talk together before dinner though. BABIES ARE CUTE!!! haha!

Then brought her to Kovan to meet Shahrul, Farleeq, Yan and Raimi. Oh and mamat came later. Then i guess she was damn bored uh. Cos we were all playing bowling. I made her feel left out. I feel damn bad.

Then sent her to the bus stop then waited with her for her bus then i went opposite to take a bus home reached home. Damn sleepy went online. Now talking to Cheryl, Jonathan and Dominic. Should i go down to madinathul?? Very sleepy eh!!! =))

17DEC2008

2008-12-17T20:05:00.002+08:00

HOKEY!!!

Many had happened. Had been drinking like a mad man. Mark went NS. Shahrul started work at Serangoon's mac. Had a BBQ with my class for probably the last time. Got a new job a Staples.

BBQ, had the whole night drinking. Made new friends yet got an old friend back. HAHA! We had alcohol and this girl Conny which is my old friend, and her friends Marailyn i can't remember the others. Had the poker cards. So we played drinking games for the whole night and i managed to get drunk and went home. I puked several times! HAHA!

Jun Zhe went down to the BBQ as well. Whoa Mercedes SLK... The smoothes car i've ever drove. Damn expensive, i dare not go fast. HAHA!

Then the next day had a very good rest. I slept the entire day. Then this morning woke up and went to work.

Finally graduated man. Friday Jenson's birthday. Gonna go eat again. Then sat Farleeq's birthday. Going sentosa. But i've gotta leave at 7 on sat sia. Hope Farleeq dont mind. Gotta go meet up with my church friends. Christmas gathering. =))

Today work was fine. Had fun though i was like blur blur one. Thats all for today. =))

12DEC2008

2008-12-12T11:52:00.002+08:00

Last night went to had dinner with Bing Xun and the rest celebrating Chee Hoe's birthday. Dinner was at Yishun, Bottle Tree. It was a sumptous meal ma.. HAHA! Then after that went to north point that area. Had a drink. Slacked for awhile cos all gotta rush for the last bus man. HAHAHA! We'll continue drinking on Monday man. At the BBQ. That Jun Jie is finally going for it. HAHA!

Aftter that went home took 854 from yishun's interchange. When i reached hougang there wasn't 72 left man. So i walked from Hougang Point to Avenue 8. Bought ciggs then went to meet mark. HAHAHA! Then watched a show at his place with him, Shahrul and Tasha. Then went downstairs to lepak for awhile. Then had to go home.

Then Shahrul and i went to mac. We cant sleep for goodness sake. Then we played cards till morning man. Then saw Michael and hi mum. They were about to send Mark off. So sent him a goodbye msg! HAHAHA Enjoy NS man. We'll miss ya. HAHAHA! Anyway at mac there were this hot girl man. HAHAHA! I love her tan boy!

Then came home in the morning. Can't sleep still till now i've finished watching 2 seasons of FRIENDS in 2 DAYS!! =)) Now i'm at season 7 hehe. cool. Alright gotta wake up later to meet Shahrul to down Farleeq's 125z. Then we're jamming tonight. ZoukOut cancelled for me man. It's expensive i rather go have dinner or go out with Cheryl since she wanted to. HAHA! Alright update tonight. =))

11DEC2008

2008-12-11T00:57:00.002+08:00

HOKAY!!! Yesterday!! Had a whole night of drinking man. Came home dead drunk. Puking like an idiot!! HAHAHA! Slept the whole day woke up and puke then sleep again. Met Mamat, Mamat's mdm and Shahrul for dinner. Boought ciggys.. Then came home.

Last night drank with my old school mates indeed everyone there is from MONTFORT!!! Accept donn. HAHA! Then really had fun man.. Tmr Chee hoe's birthday hahaha! Alright nothing else to blog. Oh and i really hate her now man... =))

I feel that i'm gonna be so lonely man.. sigh...

08DEC2008

2008-12-08T04:34:00.003+08:00

This is my hair now, should i stick to this or change to RED?? =))

I've finished school for almost one week. I'm still jobless...

Alright havent been doing much have been out all nights playing Xbox. Have been watching friends at home. Last night we all gave Mark a surprise party at his place. Was fun! Drank like hell man. HAHA! Then went home this morning. Slept the whole day. Woke up in the evening. Watch friends again. Till night then shahrul called me to ask me out to mac. So went out. Then went to eat prata then came home updating all my songs and changed the song on my blog. Thats all man. Have been doing all this only. What a life.

I starting to hate her man..

02DEC2008

2008-12-02T01:15:00.002+08:00

Me=))

Shahrul.

Nen.

Farleeq.

Bowling. =))

This few days have been doing crazy things. Every night play Xbox so far we went to Mark's house, Farleeq's house and my house. From night play till morning 11AM sia!!! Nothing much happened too. Every night madinathul lepak. Yesterday, i've done a sweetest thing i've ever done seh. Help Estella buy food. Sial ah. I've never done that sia.

I was like rushing everywhere and was late, supposedly meet Farleeq they all at 9. End up 9.45 then meet. HAHAHA! Then today slept the whole day then woke up at around 8pm. Had dinner. Then went to play bowling with Nen Farleeq and Shahrul. HAHAHA!!

29NOV2008

2008-11-29T04:03:00.002+08:00

Hokay, went to madinathul met Nen, Shahrul, Yan and Farleeq. Lepak there makan makan. Then adventure canceled cos short one bike. So Shahrul and i went to meet Mark at his void deck. Then come ah neh and charlse. Lepak there chit chat. Then it was time to go homey. So came home. Damn bored now sia. Cannot sleep. I'm becoming like an owl man.

Shit uh. cam back late. Supposedly send Eefennie her songs. I'm sorry!!! =)) Anyway, tmr meeting Alex for dinner. Long time never see him man. haha. Alright update tonight.

28NOV2008

2008-11-28T17:30:00.003+08:00

YESTERDAY!

Went to school. Gary drove me to school sia! HAHAHA! Last day of school man. Took many many photos. Uploaded in friendster. Then went to meet Jun Jie. Took photos again. After that accompanied Gary to Tiong Bahru return car. Came home sleep.

Woke up at night then went to madinathul met Nen, Yan, Farleeq and Shahrul. Then went out for awhile. Then went to mac for awhile met Mark then Shahrul went back home took his XboX went to mark's house play till this morning 10am. Came home sleep.

Woke up now. Doing nothing hahaha! Tonight meet them again. Then GOING ADVENTURE!!! HEHEHE! Update tonight. =))

26NOV2008 (2)

2008-11-26T20:34:00.000+08:00

Hokay... Havent sleep since last night. =))

Went school had lessons retook my test. Then had lunch break. Then went back for lessons again. It's actually revision though. But it's kind of important to me now. Cos never listen in class. HAHA! Rabak seh.. Alright shall stop here i wanna go sleep already. =))